I woke up with lots of energy this morning and couldn’t wait to go have a swim in the sea but it was too dark. So I practised some qigong, a video from YouTube, The 8 Brocades, very simple but powerful exercises working on the energy and meridians. Clearing the 100 illnesses
Then it was light enough to venture out. The sea is amazing, the Arabian Sea, perfect temperature and a little calmer in the morning. My muscles really ache today from yoga and swimming but I managed to have half an hour, then back in time for yoga.
I’m feeling very much at home here now, as if I’ve been here forever.
The powder massage with the herbs and spices, followed by the steam pod was very welcome today as it eased my aching body.
Squeezed in a little sunbathing on the beach, then back for my juice and got ready for my counselling session.
After my initial consultation she decided some tantra breathing exercises would be beneficial for me. My story was all around relationships and money, because of what had happened during my marriage. The betrayal in the relationship, then denied my financial rights, not having a leg to stand on because we were married in the UK and the business was in France. Resentful that 17 years of my life had been wasted supporting a man who wasn’t at all who I thought he was. Followed by another 7 years of waiting and being drip fed money owed to me whilst he continued to build his empire and have a nice life with his new partner.
Me, being the type who just gets on with it the best I can, stuffing everything down, with a smile on my face, has resulted with my lower chakras, (survival energy centres), being blocked and 2 decades of struggle to receive love and money. Negative emotions cause blockages, a disruption in the flow of energy. If you simulate this to the electrical current running through your home and short circuiting, something stops working, breaks down. Stagnant energy then becomes a physical ailment.
The breathing techniques were to allow me to unblock anything lying deep at a subconscious level, so I can live the life I deserve.
What came up for me during the breathing was memories of men who had humiliated me, especially to do with intimacy, not that there were many, but the events painful enough to cause me to be trapped in a terrible pattern of attracting the wrong type. It was never evident they were the wrong type until further down the line.
My therapist made me laugh when she said I had a high tolerance for bullshit!
The good thing was I still got myself out there and gave them a chance but for now to recognize right from the initial start, that if the other isn’t giving back as much as you, then you walk away. 100% from each, not 50/50 and a bit in the middle but 100% input. Sharing, commitment and everything else.
I’m having another session before I leave.
I did some shopping on the beach where a very smiley Indian lady was selling sarongs, saris, bags etc. I bought 4 sarongs and some bits of jewellery. Trying on some dresses, she noticed I’d had surgery and we both opened up to each other about our lives. She spoke English better than I. She told me that only the wealthy seek conventional treatment for cancer in India, the rest cure themselves with natural remedies. Speaks volumes doesn’t it?!
I asked if I could take a photo of us both and she agreed with the loveliest smile.
Just before sunset I took a long walk on the beach, you can walk for miles. I was surprised to see 2 camels being led by their masters, highly decorated.
So now back in my room, enema done and carrot and coriander soup devoured, so bland but better than the clear broth we have at 4 pm. Time for bed, meditation then sleep.